Author: Marcy Beller Paul
Synopsis: Mattie shouldn’t be at the bonfire. She should be finding new maps for her collection, hanging out with Kris, and steering clear of almost everyone else, especially Jolene. After all, Mattie and Kris dropped off the social scene the summer after sophomore year for a reason. But now Mattie is a senior, and she’s sick of missing things. So here she is.
And there’s Jolene: Beautiful. Captivating. Just like the stories she wove. Mattie would know; she used to star in them. She and Jolene were best friends. Mattie has the scar on her palm to prove it, and Jolene has everything else, including Hudson.
But when Mattie runs into Hudson and gets a glimpse of what could have been, she decides to take it all back: the boyfriend, the friends, the life she was supposed to live. Problem is, Mattie can’t figure out where Jolene ends and she begins.
Because there’s something Mattie hasn’t told anyone—she walked away from Jolene over a year ago, but she never really left.
Huge thank you to the publisher for letting me read an advanced copy of this book!
I went into this book expecting to love it and it was just okay for me. I’d heard it was a little like Dangerous Girls and while I noticed a few parallels between the MC and her BFF, that’s it.
I actually wanted to like this more than I did. The writing was really good, but the characters were all trying too hard. It was supposed to be super deep and twisted and I didn’t really feel that much of anything.
Mattie, our MC, used to be one of the four elite in their school. She was chosen by Jolene, a strange, beautiful, fun girl who was always making up stories. Then there was Kris, the brooding journalism student and Bella, the cute bouncy preppy girl who throws great parties. They all have their demons and they spend all their time together being awesome. Then something happens and Mattie walks away from it all, including the boy that she was falling for.
This book starts at the beginning of senior year. Mattie convinces Kris, who s now her one and only friend, to go to their senior year bonfire, and then to Bella’s party. There Mattie reconnects with Hudson, the boy she was supposed to be with but wasn’t, and Kris reconnects with Bella. Mattie also has her first real run in with Jolene in over a year. This is the catalyst for Mattie to start to change. And Kris doesn’t like it. Mattie is suddenly changing herself, dating Hudson finally, and Jolene seems to have fallen to the bottom of the dog pile.
Typical ugly pretty people in YA. Only nothing really connected with me. I didn’t really feel anything when it came to any of the characters. I didn’t feel any of the relationships at all. And Jolene and all of her twisted games and stories was just weird. I’ve never know anyone like that at all. And even when it came down to the big reveal and the whole reason WHY Mattie and Kris had walked away I was just like… that’s it?
Overall, I was very underwhelmed.